A Long Road

I'm going crazy.  It's been about 60 hours of recovery so far and there should be two weeks total and tomorrow I face the time alone.  Mom, Boo, Dad and even Pkin were keeping me company this weekend.  On Monday everyone returns to work or their normal lives, except for me.  My day will be with legs raised, walking to "powder my nose" or moving into another legs raised position.  There are two in my house, in my bed and in the chair in the living room.  There's the chair in my bedroom but it's ottoman is a bit indisposed.  I'll work on that tomorrow, something to do. 

I'm also thinking about all the work things that I could be doing but I really don't trust my mental state, there is some amount of prescribed medication in my system.  So I read about a German women who had a half-Jewish daughter in Weimar (so far it's OK, not sure how much is biographical.)  I also read the LA Times quite thoroughly.  If you have a chance but don't have to pay extra see In the Land of Women.  I guess that's all I have to say at this point but, elective surgery never looks good that days after.

If you think about cosmetic procedures, there is so much swelling and it takes days or weeks for the positive results to be seem.  Mine is definitely not cosmetic but it was a choice.  I know it was the best choice but right now it's hard to believe that.  You saw the picture, it's not pretty.  If I could just relax I'm sure this time would be much more enjoyable.  Tomorrow I work on an ottoman and hunting for my knitting.  It will be a good day.

Oh, something that Pkin found on the Vallejo Times Herald, it's been taken offline now but really makes you think:

Dolores Aguilar
1929 - Aug. 7, 2008 Dolores Aguilar, born in 1929 in New Mexico, left us on August 7, 2008. She will be met in the afterlife by her husband, Raymond, her son, Paul Jr., and daughter, Ruby. She is survived by her daughters Marietta, Mitzi, Stella, Beatrice, Virginia and Ramona, and son Billy; grandchildren, Donnelle, Joe, Mitzie, Maria, Mario, Marty, Tynette, Tania, Leta, Alexandria, Tommy, Billy, Mathew, Raymond, Kenny, Javier, Lisa, Ashlie and Michael; great-grandchildren, Brendan, Joseph, Karissa, Jacob, Delaney, Shawn, Cienna, Bailey, Christian, Andre Jr., Andrea, Keith, Saeed, Nujaymah, Salma, Merissa, Emily, Jayci, Isabella, Samantha and Emily. I apologize if I missed anyone. Dolores had no hobbies, made no contribution to society and rarely shared a kind word or deed in her life. I speak for the majority of her family when I say her presence will not be missed by many, very few tears will be shed and there will be no lamenting over her passing. Her family will remember Dolores and amongst ourselves we will remember her in our own way, which were mostly sad and troubling times throughout the years. We may have some fond memories of her and perhaps we will think of those times too. But I truly believe at the end of the day ALL of us will really only miss what we never had, a good and kind mother, grandmother and great-grandmother. I hope she is finally at peace with herself. As for the rest of us left behind, I hope this is the beginning of a time of healing and learning to be a family again. There will be no service, no prayers and no closure for the family she spent a lifetime tearing apart. We cannot come together in the end to see to it that her grandchildren and great-grandchildren can say their goodbyes. So I say here for all of us, GOOD BYE, MOM.

Comments

[Laurie]

Wow! That is an interesting obit. Honest. Probably a lot more healthy.